Monday, September 26, 2016

This Moment In Fashion...Patchwork Jeans

Relaxed fit, skinny name it. Patchwork denim is a thing and I'm still on the hunt for the perfect pair for me. Jeans are tough because they require an actual trying on process that I just don't have the patience for. With a weird hip to thigh to the rest of my leg ratio...sizing is tough. But, I digress, this post is not about the struggle find denim to fit, but rather the crazy cool new denim trend that I'm seeing all over retailers. What's up with me digging denim lately? I've been loving the new frayed hem trend, too. Who have I become? A denim enthusiast? I cringe at the thought.

Patchwork feels nostalgic for some reason. There's something that just makes it feel like...juvenescence. It's a different type of deconstructed that just straight up distressing and holes down the entire length of the pants. It makes it a little edgy and a little toned down. It can be more of a statement when there's a dramatic color difference between the denim used to make the patches (or rather, the fabric, as seen in some of the pairs I've found).

Sunday, September 25, 2016

Good Reads

1. London Fashion Week: Up Close and Personal I'm loving these small details!

2. NYFW: Backstage Beauty at Tracy Reese with Mary Kay I've always been fascinated with backstage and behind the scenes action!

3. Autumnal Reds Hannah, of course, rocks this darn red eyeshadow like nobody's business. I love.

4. Off Duty When will I ever look this cool in leggings, slip-ons, and a sweatshirt? The answer is NEVER, but Carly rocks the crap out of it.

5. Miuccia Prada is the Most Important Designer in Fashion Sums up my adoration and fascination for Prada.

6. How to Style Oversize Shirts for Fall 2016 Ugh, YES. I love oversized everything, especially blouses like this.

7. Why Does Hillary Clinton Have to Be Funny? I'm not much for politics, but this was an interesting read!

8. NY Closets: Simone Nemirovsky I would wear ALL OF THESE.

9. Always Buy the Dress I must agree with this logic...

10. How to Turn Around a Bad Day This is so, so important! There's nothing wrong with having bad days, but it's always worth a try to turn them around.

11. Gucci Is Still Worth Investing In (If You Were Wondering) Recently, Gucci has just been doing it for me lately. Mega heart-eyes over this.

12. 10 Target Buys To Prep Your Home For Fall God, I love that bar cart. I have no need for it...but I want it. I want it so bad.

13. Hey, It’s Leandra: What I Wore Every Day of NYFW Leandra is honestly GOALS.

What have you been reading lately?

Saturday, September 24, 2016

Dream Closet, Vol. 21

If there's not an underlying theme with this group of items...Listen, I've been having a Moment™ with denim lately. I hate jeans. I will proclaim my hatred for denim fabric on the daily, and yet, they're all I want to wear. Maybe it's me yearning for fall or maybe it's me finally embracing how fun denim can actually be. I don't know if I'll ever let myself discover the answer, but perhaps I'll keep it in the back of my head for exploring and pondering at another time. 

I'm also (yes, still) obsessing over pussybow details on tops and dresses. I'm never growing out of this, appears. I must embrace them full force now. I wish I could say "pussybow" without getting furrowed brows and odd stares directed towards me. IT'S A STYLE, I SWEAR! 

What would be in your dream closet?

Friday, September 23, 2016

Positivitea Cup Sixteen: Surviving the First Exam

Raise your hand if you like to put extra pressure on yourself to do extremely well in school no matter the subject matter. I practically hit the ceiling with my knuckles from raising my hand so high. This whole pressuring myself to do the best always thing is getting a bit old. Yawn. Alas, I've been doing this to myself for years and years, constantly telling myself that my best is not actually my best and that if it's not an A, it could be better. As crazy as I know this sounds, it's what's in my head and I haven't been able to tweak or change it.

There's certainly nothing wrong with wanting to do well. You should have pride in the work you do and exerting effort on your education isn't wrong. But there's a line between pushing yourself to reach success and dragging yourself through hell and back and back once more just because you think there's no chance of success at a level deemed less than perfect.

I have my first exam in one of my classes today and one of my first "concept" exams in quite a few semesters. It feels like I've forgotten how to study, how to retain information, how to explain concepts to myself in ways that will make them stick in my head. I've forgotten how to fill out study guides, how to pinpoint important sections of my notes, how to do anything that is supposed to lead me to success during this exam. I scolded myself for falling asleep studying last night and once again this morning when my alarm went off half an hour early and I switched it to my original alarm time because I deemed those extra 30 minutes of sleep more important. Hell, I'm even scolding myself now for waiting until the last minute to write this blog post when I could be studying my little booty off before I head to campus.

One might say I need to breathe. And truthfully, I probably do. I need to breathe and relax and remind myself that whatever happens, it's not the end of the world. The outcome of this exam won't hurt me in the long run. I've studied too hard to completely fail (this could, technically, affect me in the long run if it did happen...but I digress). Not receiving a perfect or near perfect score isn't going to kill me. It's not going to ruin my spirit or ego or make me deem myself stupid. It's just going to be a reminder to do a little bit better next time.

On the other hand, it could be a reminder, or rather a testament, to my work ethic. I could pass with soaring colors and explain my thoughts and opinions on the matters of political communication in elegant and well-thought out sentences and paragraphs. I could whiz through the exam with confidence and smile proudly when I finally see the grade.

There are plenty of different outcomes when the exam is said and done, but none of them should affect me the way that they do in my head. Surviving a first exam (or even a fifth exam) in a class is not about the actual grade at the end, but the way you feel about it. It's impossible to tell someone not to get down on themselves or not to put these immense pressures on ourselves. School is hard, exams are hard, some of these concepts are hard. But how we do on exams doesn't define us. It takes a while to learn this, to commit it to memory so that we actually believe it.

Thursday, September 22, 2016

Things I'm Loving

1. Ugg 'Dakota' moccasins 

Every time I tell myself no more Uggs, I buy more Uggs. Once you have them in your life, you never want to let them escape, one way or another. I did escape the classic short Uggs and replaced them with a pair of sturdier, rubber-toed winter boots. I thought I was content...I was wrong. We had a massive Ugg sale at work this past weekend and I was surrounded by new Uggs. Surrounded. I told myself repeatedly that I wasn't allowed to budge. I wasn't going to fall victim to the plush, warm exteriors of the I bought a pair of moccasins instead. I blame myself for wearing uncomfortable shoes to work that day and being on my feet for eight hours. But I looked this pair of moccasins in the eye and I felt a magnetic pull. I slipped my feet into them and from then on, it was game over. The second my toes touched that heavenly lining, I was a goner.

I've barely taken them off since I've gotten them. What was my life like before a pair of house slippers like this? What was life like barefoot all of the time? These are literally my life's savior. Imagine how warm my toes are going to be when it starts to get colder outside and by default, in the apartment. Imagine it. I'm in heaven. Honestly, even if you don't get a pair of Uggs, invest in a pair of house slippers or moccasins. Greatest decision I've made in a long, long time.

2. "Still Falling For You" by Ellie Goulding

I'm a sucker for any and every Ellie Goulding song. She's been my homegirl since her first EP released in 2009. "Starry Eyed" sparked my love for Ellie and I've been trucking alongside her ever since. For the new film Bridget Jones's Baby, Ellie has released a new single for the soundtrack. It took a few listens to completely grow on me and ever since that third listen, I've been hooked. Absolutely hooked. It's just one of those jams, man. It's a pretty typical Ellie Goulding song, not quite as powerful as "Love Me Like You Do," but still enough to make me jam out in the car and in the shower. I also made sure to ask it to my fall playlist, if you haven't taken a glance at that yet.

3. This Is Us

No, I'm not referring to the cinematic masterpiece that was One Direction's concert film and documentary from 2013. I mean, I very well could be, that film is always great...I digress. I'm actually referring to the "new Parenthood" (which, if you've been reading my blog for a while, would know that is one of my all time favorite shows and has made me cry more than I'd like to admit) that premiered on NBC on Tuesday. I know we're only one episode in but guys, that one episode was so spectacularly amazing. For fear of spoiling anything, just know that you will suffer the greatest plot twist in a first episode ever. E V E R. Honestly, it was so spectacularly laid out and despite all of the Easter eggs they gave us, I didn't catch on until one of the very last scenes. Brilliant. Absolutely brilliant. I did cry loads, as expected, and I can't wait to continue crying my eyes out every single week. Plus, Milo Ventimiglia, am I right? *fans myself*

Wednesday, September 21, 2016

Pumpkin Spice and Everything Nice | A Fall Playlist

Just knowing that tomorrow is the first official day of fall is doing weird things to me. I have a feeling that if I'm not already awake at midnight (who knows these days), I might wake up at 12:00 a.m., grin widely, and fall back asleep. I'm like a kid on Christmas morning. All I want is dying leaves, all the autumnal colors and #AllThePumpkinSpice. I might talk about my love for fall more than my love for agendas and Harry Styles, which is saying something, considering last time I checked over 10% of my content has mentioned Mr. Styles in one way or another. But that's neither here nor there. I am a professional, after all. And yes, I am indeed laughing at myself at that comment. #FakeBlogger

Fall is not only my favorite season because of sweaters and pumpkin and dark lipstick, but also because the autumnal mood is just my favorite. There's always that sort of underlying indie vibe to it. The chill nights, the acoustic music, the sort of deep broodiness of sitting in a coffee shop with horn-rimmed glasses reading a book by some old dead guy who was probably misogynistic AF.

I digress, my fall music selection is generally pretty specific, so I'll be adding to this playlist throughout the season! For now, here's just a very specific selection of fall tunes to dip your toes into the autumn months!

Tuesday, September 20, 2016

My Dream Job Doesn't Exist

I should preface this by saying I don't even know if I have a dream job. I mean, ideally I would get paid to do absolutely nothing. Just kidding. But you know what I mean? We all have our dream jobs of making enough money to travel and live a mildly extravagant life. Beyond that, we all have that ideal dream job that's slightly more realistic and generally follows the path we've taken to get there, whether it's what we went to college or trade school for or just something we were interested in before we dove into the work force.

The older I get and the closer I creep to graduation, I think I get asked questions about what my plans are post-grad at least a dozen times a week, one way or another. I've talked about feeling like I'm stuck in limbo, in that sort of "I don't know" mentality and that really hasn't changed much. I'm twenty (nearly twenty-one) and I don't think I have to know. Knowing seems limiting to me. For my personal interests, having one solid thing that I want to do might just not be possible and I don't think I'd want that for myself. I like options. I like keeping my mind open to new opportunities. I just don't think I'm in the business to turn anything down. That's not to say I have to say yes to everything, but in the area that I think I want to work in, things are ever-changing and I need to keep my eyes open for new developments.

My main interests lie specifically in fashion and beauty. I haven't completely ruled out the idea of being a journalist in those aspects, but I have never been interested in–and have really solidified my distaste for–news writing. It's just not for me. But I've also grown attached to strategic social media concepts as well as online marketing and e-commerce. Do jobs like this exist in the world? Probably, most likely. Maybe not a whole conglomerate of my interests, but sometimes our dream jobs with dream aspects and salaries just don't exist. We have to make the best of what we can find and slowly see if you can slip your interests or aspects of them into it.

I graduate in a few months and my future is pretty fuzzy. I have ideas, but nothing is set in stone and nothing will be set in stone for a while. It's driving me a little nutty to not have solid plans, but in a world where things change daily (hell, even hourly), I can't count on anything. I can't plan ahead because things could come up a year from now or even things might disappear a year from now. My dream job might not exist now, it might not exist in a year. Maybe I'll have to create my dream job.

It might seem stressful to not know. It might drive you absolutely crazy not having a solid idea for your future. But we are meant to constantly grow and change. People might be in the same job that they love for decades. Some people might switch job every two years to find something that works for them. There is no one straight and narrow path for everyone. Sometimes, there are twists and turns that will run you up and down a mountain. They might knock you down and steer you in the wrong direction, but we'll find our way eventually.